Collecting Thoughts .....

I, Me & Myself

2009-05-31T00:51:00.000+05:30

I have been walking, by the street.
I see a old man, full of anger and creed.

I asked, what happened, what have you found,
He says little confusions and many wounds.

I was a king of my life, I did whatever I could,
Somehow I missed what I should.

I played with friends, cheated my nearest,
I used my body as the cleverest.

Today my life boomeranged, see my wounds,
My real own are deaf to my sounds.

I have always taken the path which was shortest,
My appetite overcame and I never did protest.

Today again I am back to the same crossroad,
But I can’t decide, I will walk again with my broken sword.

Listen to my advices, I am an old man,
Forty years back the situation was same.

I couldn’t realize I was different from my body,
I used to hear myself but did what was shoddy.

You are more than what you can see in mirror,
More than what you think, more than just pioneer.

Choose the toughest path, have some faith,
You will realize you are free of any wrath.

Same crossroads will come to your life again and again,
But trust me you will know which one to be taken.

The old man left, I though I met my own clone,
Was it me forty years down, creeping alone.

Moving ahead, again I see the road and the streets,
But now I know which one to be left and which one to greet.

New Beginning !!

2007-01-03T23:48:00.003+05:30

you failed... yes today you failed...

close our mind and see inside..

what is there so long to hide..

you can't stop that light...

I knw you are a gem like bright...

This is just life's small part..

and can't throw u into parts..

this is time to remember the steel..

which is lying inside u to kill...

kill the cry and the pride..

only remember the moments u hav tried..

Circumtances can't make u kneel..

rather they will forge u Steel...

you are going to be the best..

this is just a small test..

wipe the tears and burn the fears..

make the face that says Cheers..

this moment is a moment to decide..

whether you face it or run to hide..

remember the god and your parents..

watchin n wating u to happen..

you can do it I believe..

you can't quit and cannot leave..

decide to stand up and start fighting..

believe in yourself and start a new Beginning..

Happy New Year!!

2007-01-03T23:41:00.001+05:30

Lots of dolls n lots of chocolates
lots of smile n lots of accolades
lots of honey n lots of money
lots of shower and lots of flower
lots of cars n lots of powers

lots of food n lots of cooks
lots of bike n lots of gasoline
lots of calls n lots of balance

lots of love and lots of dove
lots of letter n lots of emotions
lots of music n lots of movies
lots of life n lots of games
lots of lots n lots of lots..
wishing u a year full of happiness and success..

"Thanks a lot"

2006-07-29T20:22:00.001+05:30

Thanks for coming to meet me when
you didn't have time

Thanks for sitting with me when
you were not understanding me

Thanks for listening my thoughts
when I was silent.

Thanks for talking to me when
you didn't have anything to say

Thanks for the smiles when
you didn't understand my jokes

Thanks for sharing your problems when
you didn't need my help

Thanks for walking down with me when
you couldn't bear your sleep

Thanks for saying the good words when
you couldn't help me

Thanks for the each tiny rebuke and big scoldings
Thanks for the everything thanks for the everything.

Two Steps Behind

2006-03-25T10:50:00.001+05:30

love is a feeling deep inside
a feel of myself and my pride
an undefined circle
& I keep moving along its side

Love is a selfless joy ride
but a little selfish somewhere inside
I say its fun its happiness
but it is the biggest pain I try to hide

I say I understand you
know you.....
but tell me why ?
when I stand in your shoes
I find myself equally confused

Love is patient and calm
but I was the most impatient
in the last seconds
before each time we met

Love is pure and clean
But sometimes so blind
can't see anything else
having your image
in my heart and my mind

Love is the purest gift I ever had
you didn't change me
brought outside the person inside
made me think what am I
I am with you when you are with me
and when away....................
I am just two steps behind

A dream!!!

2006-02-10T22:09:00.002+05:30

your have brought a GOAL in my life,
huge tension and thousands smile.
I love when your eyes stare,
and the way you care.

one day I saw a sweet dream,
a sea shore and we sharing a single Ice Cream.
When it was over, we saw the sun set
bringing sunrise to my unworthy Fate.

After a while we were below the stars
No one else around no rules no bars.
then the pretty moon smiled,
as if saying to me '[;)]' my dear child.

in a minute the dark night was over
The brightest of all nights in my life.
I didn't speak a single word nor did she.
her silence told everything to me.
I dont care now about the world and the time
as far as i am yours and you are mine!!!

kuchh aisa ho!!!

2006-02-10T14:35:00.000+05:30

saare jahaan mein apni bhi ek misaal ho..
is badi duniya mein kahin mera bhi ek aasmaan ho..
jo log aaj mujhpe hansa karte hain
unki nazrein bhi khuda kare sharmshaar ho!!

sabki mushkurahat sabka pyar banu
kuchh apni bhi aisi pehchaan ho
hum chale to zamana thame
kuchh apni bhi aisi shaan ho !!!

Apni zindagi Apni duniya Apna ghar ho
aur usme rahne wale ko hum par fakra ho
Raat sulaya kare humein lori gaakar
har din meri ek nayi shuruaat ho!!
har din meri ek nayi shuruaat ho!!

60 Years To Spend

2005-09-25T10:58:00.000+05:30

I put my hands in my pocket,60 years to spend
I went to the first shop,sleep was being sold
essential for health ,with a discount,take 20 years
and sleep for 10 years free ,I took 20 and left
Next a simple hut,with an old man sitting
why here is no crowd i asked ,Because these are very costly
i sell happiness ,i gave him 25 years and bought some of it
I went out of the store ,you have to pay the taxes
5 years for hard work ,and 5 years of pleasure
A big, beautiful ,Skytouching store
selling pleasure very cheap ,just for 2 years get infinite
i gave 2 , became ecstatic ,put my hands in the bag
some one stole my happiness ,and 5 more years
Cursed myself and left ,paid the tax and left
3 years are left ,In my pocket
oh... I dont have now enough ,went to the next store
No one is there ,No sales person
very less crowd ,A store of knowledge
Free for all ,Give your 3 years
and you will get it for life time
i spend my all what i had ,stepped out of the shop
what is this, My eyes changed ,where i lost my 7 years
the house of pleasure ,was just a dream
and sleep was just not enough for health
I couldn't see determination store
nor the confidence store ,standing just behind it
Why did i spent my beautiful years ,for the CHEAP
I cried, was about to leave the arena,no penny in hand
Bag of incomplete dreams ,You have to pay taxes for
children and wife ,But I have nothing ...
then we will charge you with ,
5 years ill health, 5 years of lonliness in your old age
I was charged....
when everything ended i came out of the gate
an old man with light in his hand
Son you always went for comfort
blindness of pleasure and sleep
you cudn't see the free store of love and help
with which everything was free
health, happiness,good sleep everything
Sorry Father i couldn't make it
Dont regret son look behind
and I saw a thousand man were standing behind
and thousands were about to come out of the gate
Son Initially I used to live in the arena
No one was listening , so i am here now
Waiting for your money to get exhausted................
But You can't do any thing now...
I can't give you back your time....

Not Enough !!!

2005-09-09T09:41:00.000+05:30

This is one of the poem i wrote last year.The poem is all about the experiences i had in my life....go on ...

when i was a child
to bring down the toys kept above
standing on toes
tried too hard
and i fell, realised
this much effort is not enough
father came saw me crying
wounded knees,wet nose
saw i broke few of them
he put me in his lap
and put them far away from my reach
saying this much height is not enough
i grew old one day
heared pleading of an old man
while going to school
how helpless he is
tried to go and help him
i saw towards my watch
i was getting late for the school
just ran away
this much gut is not enough
time went on
second position in the class
made me to suspect
on my caliber
first time i realised
this much work is not enough
i went on went on
never looked back
no dawn no sunset
same for me
every time is for work
and i woke up when i realised
when i topped
should i stop??
this much success is not enough
every up and down of my life
made me think
to stay boldly,to continue
never give up
whatever be the case
hard work and determination
when come together
act like an alchemist
whenever i fell
i looked above to the peak
and thought this much travel is not enough
when i rose a little
smiled,never looked back
to look back i have to stop
stopping is death,so didn't
i am going on
moving faster and faster
till the time i won't realise
this much "I" is not enough

The Stars

2005-09-09T09:30:00.000+05:30

A small child on a street
Looking upwards for hours
Mom they are so beautiful
On a Clear sky
Natural Toys to play
But why can't i touch them
A Boy on a street
Looking upwards for hours
But the sky is no more clear
Exams, Scolding, Home work
Searching his childhood companion
searching the stars
A college guy on a street
Looking upwards through his drink
Arrogance Ego Expectations
I can get any thing i want
I have prisoned you in my drink
look stars i am drinking you
A Graduate on a street
Looking downwards for hours
in the water again the same stars
Losing his tie and throwing his coat
She doesn't love me
I have lost what i never had
Please give me some company
Oh my dear Stars.
A man on a street
Looking at the stars for a moment
Have so many incomplete works
Help me in making 'her' happy
And give company to my son
As you gave me
Sorry i don't get time often
O! my Dear Stars
An Old man on a street
Looking at the stars never ends
Death denies to take him along
Looking at the sky is no more fun
Waiting for the angel
Please come from these tiny lights
and take me away
Stars, always the same
We change but you never
you are so great
even fall to make our wishes true
and he says truly
your star was always shining
You never dare to look at it

Monsoon Wedding !!!

2005-09-09T09:17:00.000+05:30

This is a story of a boy who has loved someone like anything but he founds that the girl doesn't like him. Which resulted in thinking that he has many drawbacks and he has to overcome those to come closer to her. So he sits one night thinking how he can does so and makes an optimistic plan for the White Fairy.

waiting for the dawn
remember to breathe when everything gone.
tried to change the MY world
expected from you "impossible WORD"
loved what i hate
said what i regret
respected whom i dont know
wandering in search of WHITE snow
let me build my fort
for all your comfort
let me rise where you are
and win my eternal war
let me make myself "respected"
and do what YOU expected
then i will take you to the moon
and ask "will you marry me in the coming monsoon? "

Raja Rani

2005-09-03T15:16:00.000+05:30

Raja ne dekha ek pyari si Rani
aur wahi se suru hui unki kahani
Raja:
Ae Rani chalo mere saath
Ab der na karo badhao apna haath
Main lakho mein kamata hoon
Dono haathon se lutata hoon
Jaha bhi chala jaaun
sabse mahaan khud ko hi paaun
Rani:
Kyun tummme aisi kya hai baat
Jo chalun main tere saath
agar tumne khub kari kamai
Maine bhi karoro ki sundarta payi
Agar itna hi lutate ho
to Khana pina kya bhik maang k late ho
Raja:
Mera hai ek pyara pariwar
Maa baap aur bhai chaar
Sabse jyada main hi kamata hoon
pure pariwar ka bojh uthata hoon
Hazaron rishte aate hai
sab mayus hokar jaate hai
Rani:
Achcha to yahaan hai pura Paandav
Jarur hota hoga roj Taandav
Main jo tere baaton pe chali
Banna padega mujhe panchali
Aur ae bojh uthane wale kuli
Kaun bewkoof chadhegi tere sang suli
hazaron rishte jo aate hai
wo tujhe hi thukrate hai

batati hoon ek Sau take ki baat
Bhikh mein nahi maangte sajani ka haath
Jo Tumhare andar hai dil lakho ka
iske samne kya mol hai sundarta ka
Kadr kiya nahi aaj tak tumne apna
Isiliye pura nahi hua aaj tak sapna
Dil waalon k saamne to puri duniya jhuk jaaye
Phir ladki ki kya aukat jo tujhe thukraye....

Lucky

2005-09-03T15:07:00.000+05:30

They never saw me
waking through out the nights

They never saw me
Dreaming the Impossible

They never saw me
shedding gallons of sweat

They never saw me
studying with a flickering candle

They never saw me
Breaking my head several times

They never saw me
exchanging chocolate for book

They never saw me
begging for time

They never saw me
sleeping on the floor under the sun

And they called me
This is madness!!!

And when i became Successful
They called "How Lucky He Is"

Inspired by the book "You can win- shiv khera"

Exams Knocking at the Door

2005-09-02T13:00:00.000+05:30

When the time is fast
assignments never last

class tests are scheduled
and our brains are bulled

when i forget my pen
lost my calc don't know when

when nights are meant to work
and labs are for rework

when the canteen is crowded
with all the notes spreaded

when the person refuses to xerox
and group effort rocks

when FEW rooms start crowding
and the syllabus is never ending

when sleep becomes a danger
and nightmares are professors

realise We are not insane,
but the exam came........

Sunday Morning

2005-08-07T10:42:00.000+05:30

Yet another Sunday morning....Fought a lot against my laziness to had my breakfast. Started with a Nagraj Comics that drown me in sleep last night and i couldn't complete it..though i finished it today..Feeling a bit better than the last ILL Health Day. Iron Maiden Rocking i m liking his particlar number "Judgement of Heaven" and one more no. by Foolsgarden "Lemon tree" awesome numbers to listen. Particularly the later one is the one depicting most of ours timetable ..yuck....

A strange thing going all around many of my friends are geting ill everyday i don't how and why ? But something is seriously going wrong..may be our "non existing" time table ...or may be our prayers not working out properly....

And one thing i remember my father use to say "What will u do with all the riches you are having if you can't keep your spine erect and steady" Now i understand how true these words are....

Now a days i am liking songs related to death .....because death is the only truth ....awkward end ...

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A tough day

2005-03-20T20:40:00.000+05:30

Hi Maa.............
I am tired re.....today i did want to attend a lecture ..but you sent me to a interhall event(bloody why i choose to be the captain)...still happy your wish Maa...i worked there like a dog and put my all strength and caliber ....still got a nothing ..the reason was given that your model size was large(wasn't at all a rule) otherwise you got almost maximum marks ....still happy your wish maa.....came back to my room ...thought will go for a treat and have some fun ...so i left one lecture in between(i managed to get some time for it by escaping last hr of the interhall) and came down to my room to get ready...but....then suddenly i got a news that one of my friend is ill ..so i decided that the treat should be kaata ..we will go some other day .....still happy your wish Maa... and pray may my dear friend get well soon...
Mother called how many times don't know ...but thnx to BSNL didn't get a single message ....still happy your wish Maa....Then i called home but still had to struggle a lot to talk to my mother ....still happy your wish Maa.....Then finally was able to talk to mother ..she said "didi ki shaadi most probably 21st april ko hai "..The same day my endsem is starting ..so the clear indication was that i will not attend my one ,alone and dearest didi's marraige .....Maa i am not happy....I am not happy .....but its your wish Maa....Then my sad respected mother said "beta holite baadi aay..(come down to home in holi)"....yes mother sure ...
then got the reservation status "WL 161" great na...I am not happy Maa...but its your wish ......

Still i am thank ful to you ..that you have given me courrage to withstand and smiling still now ...
Thanks a lot

She is all that ...

2005-03-12T10:12:00.000+05:30

this is one of my poem i wrote some time ..Hope you will like it...

..and she is all that

not the fight nor the triumph
but just one
just her one smile
makes me more agile
when she is gone its dark
her presence brings light
days are gloomy when i dont see her
and the time stops when she is with me
is that "you" what i want
she is nothing but my only dream
and i don't want to wake up any more
you are not the most beautiful
nor the sweetest girl
i dont know why i love you
do you think there should be any reason
if there is reason then its not love

i never told her a word
but my silence do keep talking
pleading me "tell her tell her"
but,the words are not enough
the fear of losing her made me so
or i don't want to say
i feel her presence when she is far
and smile in midst of the war
the war of proving myself
and keeping all expectations alive
but i think i wont let you fall
if my *loss is your happiness *loss =losing you
then take everything from me
take my all memories
wake me up tear my dreams
what else
what else i have
but just a request
allow me to love you
when you have left me alone
what else i need
what else i need

happy b'day to me

2004-12-03T18:32:00.000+05:30

Today is my b'day and the b'day of my blog .
So many years have passed quietly and smoothly
but this one was the most beautiful year of my life so far , not because i have done any thing new but i set my life's motion towards a goal . In this semester i've not only learned so many things but also realised that 'knowledge is power' .
"genetic algorithm" was a really good subject that made me realise few things in life
1st if you want to gain something then some other person has to lose(so never get frustrated if some of your friends are hitting the axe on their legs :d) and

2nd two idiot persons will never give an excellent solution,but an intelligent person can use them to create a great idea.(so you should always enjoy the company of your friends :P).

This is my 3rd b'day i am not in my home , but my friends never made me feel like that,thanx god you have given me such friends (But they never forget to give me GPL :(( ).
Last year i thought no one will remeber but happa and menty came from so far ,reddy brought so many rasgullas(yammmmm) ,so many people ,masti and a small treat ,...nice b'day na ...thnx frnds

For the next year i have made few promises (which i never keep ,coz the are made to be broken)
i will mug a lot (ufff),will make few paitings and sketches(i luvvvvv drawing) and try to clear all the misunderstading those have been created some how (bechara !!!) ,write few more boring poems(sorry frnds i can't help it)

And finally i am writing few lines from the book "wings of fire"
"for all your days be prepared
and meet them alike
when you are anvil bear
when you are hammer strike "