A tough day

Hi Maa.............
I am tired re.....today i did want to attend a lecture ..but you sent me to a interhall event(bloody why i choose to be the captain)...still happy your wish Maa...i worked there like a dog and put my all strength and caliber ....still got a nothing ..the reason was given that your model size was large(wasn't at all a rule) otherwise you got almost maximum marks ....still happy your wish maa.....came back to my room ...thought will go for a treat and have some fun ...so i left one lecture in between(i managed to get some time for it by escaping last hr of the interhall) and came down to my room to get ready...but....then suddenly i got a news that one of my friend is ill ..so i decided that the treat should be kaata ..we will go some other day .....still happy your wish Maa... and pray may my dear friend get well soon...
Mother called how many times don't know ...but thnx to BSNL didn't get a single message ....still happy your wish Maa....Then i called home but still had to struggle a lot to talk to my mother ....still happy your wish Maa.....Then finally was able to talk to mother ..she said "didi ki shaadi most probably 21st april ko hai "..The same day my endsem is starting ..so the clear indication was that i will not attend my one ,alone and dearest didi's marraige .....Maa i am not happy....I am not happy .....but its your wish Maa....Then my sad respected mother said "beta holite baadi aay..(come down to home in holi)"....yes mother sure ...
then got the reservation status "WL 161" great na...I am not happy Maa...but its your wish ......

Still i am thank ful to you ..that you have given me courrage to withstand and smiling still now ...
Thanks a lot

She is all that ...

this is one of my poem i wrote some time ..Hope you will like it...


..and she is all that

not the fight nor the triumph
but just one
just her one smile
makes me more agile
when she is gone its dark
her presence brings light
days are gloomy when i dont see her
and the time stops when she is with me
is that "you" what i want
she is nothing but my only dream
and i don't want to wake up any more
you are not the most beautiful
nor the sweetest girl
i dont know why i love you
do you think there should be any reason
if there is reason then its not love

i never told her a word
but my silence do keep talking
pleading me "tell her tell her"
but,the words are not enough
the fear of losing her made me so
or i don't want to say
i feel her presence when she is far
and smile in midst of the war
the war of proving myself
and keeping all expectations alive
but i think i wont let you fall
if my *loss is your happiness *loss =losing you
then take everything from me
take my all memories
wake me up tear my dreams
what else
what else i have
but just a request
allow me to love you
when you have left me alone
what else i need
what else i need